broken, more beautiful {story of kintsugi}

Have you ever heard of kintsugi? Also known as kintsukuroi, kintsugi is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with lacquer dusted or mixed with gold, silver, or platinum, thus making the broken piece of art worth more than it was before.   The idea of taking a broken piece of art and loving the […]

5 things to do when God feels far away

You know that feeling.   When your prayers seem to not go past the ceiling.  Or you feel like you can’t even pray at all.     When your mind feels dry and your heart feels a despairing loneliness you thought you’d never feel again.  When reading the Word feels flat, and worship songs ring empty.   […]

when your heart is sore {broken chariot wheels}

We all have those mornings, those days.  When your heart is overwhelmed, overtired, hurting–downright sore.  Feels like it’s all you can do to hold it together. When life continues to rub wrong until it carves out painful, tender scars on your weary heart.   You long for the day that life stops hurting.  When it’s no […]

the real meaning of ‘carpe diem’

I write lists. I make check boxes. I schedule. I watch the clock. I squeeze every moment. I fill the day. And I look up at the end.  What have I done?  I am tired and dry.  My brain hurts.  My mind in knots.  I am useless by the time the sun sets.  I’ve filled […]

reminder for the hard days

A reminder for the days you feel like you aren’t worth anything. For the days you feel like you are drowning in your own mistakes. For the days you wonder if you’ll make it through. If you are even worth the air you breathe. You are more, beloved girl. Let the words of this song […]

i don’t keep a diary

Earlier today in the car as I was driving to a meeting I was rocking and singing to an old album–BarlowGirl’s Another Journal Entry–a piece quite instrumental in my spiritual walk when I was about 12 years old.  (The poor people in the cars around me…probably thought I was crazy.) Songs like I Need You to Love […]

more than i deserve

Toy trucks in the already-too-small bathroom, blocking the way to the sink. The washer is off balance.  Again. I sit on the floor because I don’t have enough room for a real desk. I have to use ‘the trick’ to get the car to start sometimes, because its old. Complaints.  Grumbles.  Longings for things to […]

rest for the weary

I’m tired. After a long weekend of running from one thing to the other, I am simply exhausted. Usually when Monday comes, I am excited for the new week.  A fresh start.  A new beginning. But today is a stereotypical Monday.  The kind in which the alarm goes off and I moan, “Already?  Not yet! […]

confessions: what if we were real?

I notice a trend with the online world. It’s easy to put on a show. Let me back up. Never before, in the history of the world, have we had such easy access to so much fodder for the imagination, the mind, the emotions–at the click of a button.  With one post on Facebook, we […]

trust issues

I will admit it. I have trust issues. I did not always.  I was always the naive one.  The one that you could get to believe pretty much just about everything.  Because I trusted you.  I did not see any reason to not to–why would you lie to me? I was the wide-eyed girl that […]