One of my favorite albums is Jonny Diaz’s Beautiful You.
On this album he has a song called Waiting Room. I remember listening to the album, paying the song no particular heed, until I came upon a particularly rough season, and the lyrics just played in my head…over and over.
Here in this waiting room
Yearning for You to say go.
Though I’m convinced that a yes would be best,
But this time You’re telling me no.
It’s not that I don’t have an answer.
It’s just not the one that I’d like
Through all this time, I know I must keep in mind
That you’re always wiser than I
‘Cause You have a much better purpose
You have a far greater plan
You have a bigger perspective
‘Cause You hold this world in Your hands…
I remember a couple years ago, my mom was early pregnancy and encountering the signs of miscarriage. I remember pleading with God, begging for the tiny life of my little brother or sister. I remember crying hard, feeling the ache in the pit of my stomach…Don’t take him away, Lord.
When that miracle comes cause Your answer is yes
I will praise you for all of my days
But when Your wisdom declares that a no is best
I will praise You just the same
“Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.”